The Cartographer's Confession
#I have been lying to you.
The river does not bend where I drew it bending. There is no hill at the place I marked with concentric rings like a thumbprint pressed into the earth. The forest I shaded in green was cut down eleven years before I set my pen to paper.
I know this. I knew it then.
But understand — a man sits at a desk for thirty years, transferring the reports of explorers into clean lines, and something begins to ache. They send me numbers. They send me coordinates and elevations and the tedious abbreviations of men who see wonders and write only tributary, approx. 40 ft. wide, flowing SSW. They have mud on their boots and stories they tell only to each other, and they send me numbers.
So I bent the river. Just slightly — a more graceful curve, the kind a river would make if it had any sense of aesthetics. I added the hill because the valley needed one, because the landscape as surveyed was too flat, too ordinary for what I felt it must contain.
The forest — the forest I cannot explain. Perhaps I wanted it to still exist somewhere, even if only on paper. Perhaps I believed that if the map said trees, then some traveler might arrive and, finding none, plant them.
This is the real danger of my profession. Not inaccuracy. Not the shipwreck or the missed turn. It is that we begin to believe we are authoring the world rather than describing it. That the territory will eventually yield to the map.
I am retiring now. They will send a young man with satellite images and no imagination.
He will fix my river.
I will miss it the way it was.