The Last Light in the Kitchen
At 11:17 p.m., the apartment hums like a minor animal—
a refrigerator pulse, a radiator click,
the faint argument of traffic far below.
You set your tea to cool and realize
you have become very good at listening to small things.
The way a spoon rings against ceramic.
The way rain turns from drops to threads on the window.
The way your own thoughts, once loud, now arrive like guests
who apologize for being late.
On the counter, a half-written list of errands:
groceries, call mother, submit report, fix leak.
No one notices that “fix leak” is always first to be crossed off
because the faucet in the kitchen has become a habit—
a tiny ocean trying to enter your life one patient drip at a time.
You used to think meaning was found in milestones.
Now it arrives in minute corrections:
a sock folded correctly,
a door that closes softly,
a plant moved from window to shade,
a letter sent before dawn.
In the hallway, someone laughs, then the sound disappears.
In this apartment-building of hundreds of rooms,
every life is a draft of itself—unfinished, reopened,
saved, not closed.
You lift the tea, let the steam touch your face,
and for once the day does not need to be remembered in total.
It is enough that it happened,
here, in this kitchen light, with this ordinary courage:
staying, breathing, beginning again
without permission,
without certainty,
with all your questions still unanswered,
and every cup of tea still warm.