The Cartographer's Confession
I have been lying to you about the distance between places.
Not by much. A millimeter here, a contour line omitted there. The river bends left where I drew it bending right, but only for a moment — it corrects itself downstream, and who would ever walk that stretch to check?
I started small. I gave my daughter's street more room, widened it on paper so she might feel she lived somewhere important. I let the park beside my mother's hospice grow until it reached her window, until on the map at least, she was surrounded by green. These were victimless crimes. The world is so poorly measured anyway. We are approximations arguing over precision.
But then — and I tell you this because the maps are already printed, already folded into glove compartments and pinned to classroom walls — I began moving the mountains.
Just closer. A quarter inch, which at this scale means twenty miles, which means that if you are driving through the valley on a clear morning, the peaks will seem to rise exactly where I promised they would, just sooner than you expected, just more sudden and devastating against the sky than you were prepared for.
I wanted you to come around the bend and lose your breath.
I wanted the map to be true the way a painting is true — not faithful to the territory but faithful to the experience of crossing it. The way the lake at dusk is twice as large as the lake at noon. The way the road home from the funeral stretched for centuries, and I could not make the legend account for it, could not write 1 inch = the time it takes to stop hearing your mother's breathing machine, so instead I simply made the road longer.
They will fire me when they find out. They will compare my maps to satellite images and find all the places where I intervened, and they